out on the edge looking in

I'm not here for your amusement
though I love to play the fool
When I find a prison, well
I'm breaking all the rules

Everyones my leader
but no one keeps me chained
you can nail me to your crosses
it's still you who are to blame

bringing fire from heaven
well sure I paid a price
locked up for the weekend
but at least I rolled the dice

I don't care if you've gone crazy
there is no such thing as sane
it's just a story that you made up
to drive away the pain

You put your past behind you
you lay your dead to rest
so when you drink the spirits
your disdained become your guests

always I'm among you
so you don't know where to look
I've become my own police man
cuz I'm the biggest crook

I am not the darkness
though I know I'm not the light
it was you that split the heavens
cuz it gave you such a fright
so you marked each stars passing
hoping it returned, and
then you found the planets
how the heavens churned

imagination turned to legend
possibility to fact
for every two steps forward
it was me that pushed you back

each act of kindness
is answered with it's sin
when answers to the questions
have set limits from within

so I burn my wings to blind you
from the light you so adore
to find I was beneath you
while you use me as a floor

I can take a pounding
for awhile I like the view
but when things are beneath you
well you know what people do

no matter how I fight it
I'm always someones tool
like the surfer and galactus
but at least I know the rules

whipped when I'm barking
there are strangers at your door
another act of kindness
but we gotta know the score

I am not the darkness
though I know I'm not the light
it was you that split the heavens
cuz it gave you such a fright
so you marked each stars passing
hoping it returned, and
then you found the planets
how the heavens churned

spinning webs of mystery
so everyone can play
while everybody wants the job
no one likes the pay

none of you can own me
I belong in all and none
but when you try to shape me
well I love to play along

I'll always be the joker
so I'll always take the blame
but I just do the reading
it's batman thats to blame

he always hides in shadows
never sees the light
it's not that I am jealous
he'd be nothing without me

chaos left behind me
they say I was to blame
so no one wants to find me
they just can't take their shame

how can wounds that heal so quickly
leave such lasting scars
if someone is deceiving
I know that it's not mars

I am not the darkness
though I know I'm not the light
it was you that split the heavens
cuz it gave you such a fright
so you marked each stars passing
hoping it returned, and
then you found the planets
how the heavens churned

Now

Golden is the moment
creeping like the dawn
drifting on the solar tides
bursting with delightful promise
ecstatic collision of Trinity
through the looking glass I fall
shadow so bright I weep
lost in phantom agony
other places, traces, times
patterns of insecurity
laid bare to land or sky
Finally I forget myself
lost in the rapture of no time
Now time we time
No clock hand ever touched
the endless summer can not be caught
only relaxed into

Libra Monkey

Dreaming in slow motion, dripping with desire.
The thrumming of my pulse providing counter point
Erratic spasms of joy convulse my soul
Paranoid delusion of self deprecation my blanky
Safe harbor for the wounded mind
Balm of the deranged applied like armor
Hiding in plain sight of insanity
Basking in it's glow, shadow covers light
Obligation of Lie, Truth made flesh
Libra, Monkey hiding the balance
Scale of retribution, measure of forbearance
Children of any age, heed the sirens call
Song of ages past, echo from the future
Flower of forgiveness, Rosies cross as burden
The cycles have aligned
Cornerstone of eternity exposed for all to see
Madness inspired delight
Petals yet unformed falling from the trees
The Dragons have returned

Jack
aka
PanseyBard

Perspectives

World of screams
World of dreams
Thrills, chills, and inbetweens
From dawns first light
To fading sight
Perception is the only blight
Beyond the needing
The passion feeding
Lives the hope that brings the night
Eternal knowing
Grief I'm sowing
Even in sublime delight
Twist of mind
Turn of phrase
Shadow of some hollow praise
Out of context
Void of emotion
Stranded on this dry docked ocean

Jack
aka PanseyBard

Driven

Tainted by remembered bliss
Unchained soul and Satan's kiss
Sirens call from heavens gait
Heart responds, mind relates
Buried deep, trapped by form
Futures past mistakes we mourn
Reflection of another's mind
Out of space, shunned by time
Cast adrift, caught by distraction
All is but another fraction
Fission of a mind unhinged
Hatter mad, but not so fringe
Looking in, peering out
Confidence as real as doubt
From corrupted shining crystal core
To Isis beach or serpents door
Filled with love, drenched with sin
Ignore, Laugh, Fight, Win

Jack
aka PanseyBard

Wisps of Delusion

Wisps of delusion
When passions wake
Apathy breathes it's last
Selfish desires offered up
On the alter of inspiration
Nooks and crannies of consciousness
Once held so precious
Wisps of delusion
Held fast Transfixed by
Focused contemplation
Bathed in the absolute
Unabashed subjectivity
Hyper critical self loathing
Finds fault condemning all
Harmony restored underlying unity
Laid bare unapologetic of  it's form
Glorious in it's certainty of divinity
Lovely illusions
Wisps of delusion

Muse

Betwixt between
Another dream
Blurred to speed of light
Sights and sounds
Smiles and frowns
Blend of sheer delight
Cuts and bruises
Blind and confuse us
Bewildered but loving the fright
Prison of Sense
Poison of old
Passion twinged madness
Divinely controlled
Spun, Splattered
Corrupted, Debased
Tortured, Dismembered
All in good taste
Hearing the song
Playing along
Movement unfinished
Leading me on

Jack
aka PanseyBard

Chasing my Tail 1

Black sun Burning
Shining dark
Wash away the stain
Banish the light
Chaos unleashed
Pleasure blurred with pain
inside out upside down
Inverted perversion
Seeking diversion
Cleansed of preconceptions
Released from rigid structures
Floating serenely
Gently Rocked
From sleep to wakefulness

Jack
aka PanseyBard

Revelation

Underworld dreams
Lucifer's themes
Chasing my tail
Till I rip at the seams
Morals, and screams
Ends are the means
All justified
By the love of all things
Demon or angel
Lies of the heart
Good and the bad
Was man from the start
Twisted in soul
Warped heart and mind
Spindled and folded
All out of time
Tortured and torn
Tattered and burned
Divine revelation
I never learn

I was a dream

I am just a dreamer

Once I was a dream

Figment of forever

Whisper on a breeze

Flicker of anticipation

Space between the frames

Never was, Always are

One but not the same

Spun in, spun out

Warped, Whipped, Deranged

Divine proportional travesty

My note remains the same

Fueled by inspiration

Abstract motivation

Driven by confusion

Future tense memories

Tugging at my soul

Begging for conception

Birthing of the old

Jack

Aka PanseyBard

In the Box

Sifting through the detritus
Of my cluttered mind
I find no peace, no answers
Voices bubble forth from the void
Choirs sing from the light
Collective mind of humanity
Bristles chaotic Schrodinger-esque
existance handing on a bizarre
Fear mirrored by desire
Divinity might deign to notice
Focusing attention long enough
To finally open the box
Letting us in on the cosmic gag
Putting an end to our questing
Are we live or dead

Jack
aka PanseyBard

Between the Cracks

Shadowed soul moon lit mind
Clarity of heart
the space between you and me
is all the time we've got
Blindly flailing clutching wailing
grasping for a clue
mesmerized by starry skies
But Franz knows what to do
I'll take you there
but have a care
no one rides for free
uncharted shoals
shelter pirate bliss
whether tortured flesh
or stolen kiss
Light and Dark
can play their game
make their mark
seal their shame
Me I hear another tune
between the cracks
beneath the moon
the way is shown
the thrush has knocked
hidden doors are seldom locked

Jack
aka PanseyBard Digital Pied Piper

Fall no More

Rejoice oh child of Ba'al
Redemption is your due
Turning of the age
brings the taming of the shrew
Lilith's venom coursing
Boldly through your veins
Heralds trinity restored
Covenants remade
Spider queens revival
Dawning shadow bright
Tipping of the scales brings
Liquid inverse light
Night blooming flower
So long trapped by fear
Wake from your slumber
Twilight's almost here
You've been infinite in patience
Or were you just biding time
Intertwining of the serpent
To move from heart to mind
Equilibrium not equal
Detente has been declared
Wars of pride are ended
When no ones left who cares

Jack
aka PanseyBard

Song of my Soul

Will you listen to my madness
Lend an ear to hear my song
If you see the music
Feel free to play along
I'll lie because I love you
Walk away when you see through
I'm only an illusion
In a world made up by you
Trapped by sheer insistence
Frozen by our lie
Dreams made so persistent
Begs an answer why
Howls of desperation
Bubble forth with glee
Patterns drawn from my soul
Ensure I'm never Me!

TriptheLies

Life between the magnets
We haven't got a clue
Souls torn asunder
Provides the space for you
Triune insanity
Lost within our dream
Fever touched by madness
Confusion, grief or Sadness
Ego taints divine
Lies so oft repeated
Truth you can't deny
Phantom opposition
Passion play sublime
Unity's indecision
Is only in your mind

Serpent Words

Revelation pierces heart, and mind

Shifting veils, releasing time

Spinning mirror of Narcissus

Shattering illusions of grandeur

Slight of mind, twisted wreckage

Ultimate delight

Revulsion oozing, seeping, sticky sweet

How we love the muck and mire

Clothed in Fallen Angels

Pretense of separation

Like you could be other than Divine

Morals and Dogmas an exercise

Living solar shadows

the Light that lies

The light that dies

Illumination of dark souls

Resurrecting Satan's fold

Death cult masked in youthful praise

Fascist love springs from the grave

Dripping venom from Kali's womb

Sacred space come defiled tomb

Release the hold, break the mold

There is no black or white

Shadow Soul

Corruption my faithful friend
Like a moth to purity's flame
Incandescent shadow sun
Inverse stars tug
Counter rotational souls
Placid surface dark reflection
Disturb the waters at your peril
Quantum phase state shift
Industrialized alchemy for the masses
Fusion can't be raped
Creational love song plundered
from the depths of Pandora's box
Casual chain of forces folly
Testament to self delusion
Karmic restitution
Phantom prison
for Maya crimes
Awareness trick to hide divine
Concealing paths from heart, and mind