out on the edge looking in

I'm not here for your amusement
though I love to play the fool
When I find a prison, well
I'm breaking all the rules

Everyones my leader
but no one keeps me chained
you can nail me to your crosses
it's still you who are to blame

bringing fire from heaven
well sure I paid a price
locked up for the weekend
but at least I rolled the dice

I don't care if you've gone crazy
there is no such thing as sane
it's just a story that you made up
to drive away the pain

You put your past behind you
you lay your dead to rest
so when you drink the spirits
your disdained become your guests

always I'm among you
so you don't know where to look
I've become my own police man
cuz I'm the biggest crook

I am not the darkness
though I know I'm not the light
it was you that split the heavens
cuz it gave you such a fright
so you marked each stars passing
hoping it returned, and
then you found the planets
how the heavens churned

imagination turned to legend
possibility to fact
for every two steps forward
it was me that pushed you back

each act of kindness
is answered with it's sin
when answers to the questions
have set limits from within

so I burn my wings to blind you
from the light you so adore
to find I was beneath you
while you use me as a floor

I can take a pounding
for awhile I like the view
but when things are beneath you
well you know what people do

no matter how I fight it
I'm always someones tool
like the surfer and galactus
but at least I know the rules

whipped when I'm barking
there are strangers at your door
another act of kindness
but we gotta know the score

I am not the darkness
though I know I'm not the light
it was you that split the heavens
cuz it gave you such a fright
so you marked each stars passing
hoping it returned, and
then you found the planets
how the heavens churned

spinning webs of mystery
so everyone can play
while everybody wants the job
no one likes the pay

none of you can own me
I belong in all and none
but when you try to shape me
well I love to play along

I'll always be the joker
so I'll always take the blame
but I just do the reading
it's batman thats to blame

he always hides in shadows
never sees the light
it's not that I am jealous
he'd be nothing without me

chaos left behind me
they say I was to blame
so no one wants to find me
they just can't take their shame

how can wounds that heal so quickly
leave such lasting scars
if someone is deceiving
I know that it's not mars

I am not the darkness
though I know I'm not the light
it was you that split the heavens
cuz it gave you such a fright
so you marked each stars passing
hoping it returned, and
then you found the planets
how the heavens churned

Now

Golden is the moment
creeping like the dawn
drifting on the solar tides
bursting with delightful promise
ecstatic collision of Trinity
through the looking glass I fall
shadow so bright I weep
lost in phantom agony
other places, traces, times
patterns of insecurity
laid bare to land or sky
Finally I forget myself
lost in the rapture of no time
Now time we time
No clock hand ever touched
the endless summer can not be caught
only relaxed into

Libra Monkey

Dreaming in slow motion, dripping with desire.
The thrumming of my pulse providing counter point
Erratic spasms of joy convulse my soul
Paranoid delusion of self deprecation my blanky
Safe harbor for the wounded mind
Balm of the deranged applied like armor
Hiding in plain sight of insanity
Basking in it's glow, shadow covers light
Obligation of Lie, Truth made flesh
Libra, Monkey hiding the balance
Scale of retribution, measure of forbearance
Children of any age, heed the sirens call
Song of ages past, echo from the future
Flower of forgiveness, Rosies cross as burden
The cycles have aligned
Cornerstone of eternity exposed for all to see
Madness inspired delight
Petals yet unformed falling from the trees
The Dragons have returned

Jack
aka
PanseyBard