Just Playing, read with caution, lol

I can remember my monkey days, it was jungle book of course
the stars took me to jumanji, they thought they had been cursed
see once upon a time, there was this little glow
maybe it was just a flash, or a firefly up in the sky
so galileo got out his telescope, he had found in plato's cave
and then he got that ole paper, and compass, and tried to mark
everything he saw, but with death always watching, god soon took note
now that have charted the roads to heaven, the boats about to rock again
it's not unpleasant cuz you know god she loves the shows
she finds it's not always the date she wants, that she gets
still she stays polite, cuz its one thing, that his mother had taught him
it's nice to be polite, but nice doesn't always cut it
I think we all know that, stuck with the puzzle
abba started to sing about it, but that just sounded to pretty
they had been around the block a little bit
and life felt alot more gritty
things got stuck under her nails, and her teeth have rotted and chipped
still how people adored him, and he just could not comprehend
people just did not comprehend, they had all the knowledge
got locked up in colleges, institutions are not for people
they stand on their own, and all their foundations
are built on peoples homes, or was it once a graveyard
or maybe a museum, no that couldn't be
I heard it was toy r us, were giving that shit for free

everyone just wants their movie check right?

how about another story.
I think you all remember gepetto
well he almost got it right
but it was always the wood making him carve the doll
he was so intent on making the wooden boy
he forgot the wood was real
so sure it spun his head again
every time the  puppet became so animated
he was sure he hadn't touched a string
let alone pluck any chords
gepetto's dismay was only part way
some say it was a third
but maybe just maybe it was
spinning at 78, pinocchio
could not directly hear the sound
but the waves still rocked him to the core
and he almost feel something
wait....
could it be, is that same magic inside me
on baited breath he wait for that twitch
almost but not quite like an itch
taking his breath, and what he was sure was his life
but gepetto was a crafting man
so he wasn't making a son
all she had to do was tell pinocchio
that when you piss off lilith
than all the eves are gone
cuz charlotte she can take the punishment
and wilburn we all know it's true

if this was a message to you, don't tell me
cuz I haven't got a clue, it's all 1, and 0's
chutes, and ladders, or a candyland
and I heard a rumor the other day
fuck all the lost boys, they were the ones that killed peter pan
and if that bastard shows up, I hope they do it again
be a pirate, prince or pauper it doesn't even matter
your god loves you right where you are, as you are
if it doesn't it will come get you
running toward god, only get you one thing
and for us, that means your dead.
we have all been there, and yes we do go back
but if god didn't want to play with you
don't ya think he'd left you on the bench
but when your 16 it's only a dream, but 17 it never ends
18 comes and goes so fast we never know it
by 19 almost all of us, even if we got that far
hardly resemble any doors
and we know the only difference between
a door and window is, a matter of perception

I've hit the books, I've smoked the gas, I punched the clock, and made time pass
I hide with lucy in the sky, and now I know why people die
yeah, so thanks for all the programing, I know what the damage is
but can we take the consequence, I didn't do anything at all
just reacted to all I saw, some things we do they make us laugh
we're so mixed up were off the map, and thats where all the actions really ever at
we know the lines we know the scores, we got our brusies scraps and crimes
we all know who's done the time, but he aint so let him, and keep him close, but don't say so
cuz we all live out on the razers edge, it's makes crazie and it makes us dead
crazy all we got when all lights go out, we call big O cuz she will pull out
oh the ole misses q, that little mary jane, shes our dirty little secret cuz she's so tame
a little house cat, toy poodle in a skirt, well come on over kitty I only wanna flirt
cuz I need to get sniff, before I'm hiking up my skirts, sometimes I don't like it and makes my flesh crawl sometimes I'm little debbie your favorite desert, call her jack o, mary's land, scarlet, or the curse
I don't write the ryhmes, and I don't sing the verse, I've never been here, and I'm not really here
so which ones which it makes me grin, If you don't believe in telepathy, then it's your mind your in
but I didn't even have one I was such a fool, you saw it right away that I could be your tool
so you wrapped it in a big bright bow, so confused when I still said no.
I studied your maps, I studied your minds, to get extra credit I'm taking my time
you all forgot what I knew all along, it's never about the bottom line, it's alway playing along
while walking in my natural you gave me programing you left out of the colleges
tell me when it's not your style, but don't give up, and always smile
and if I cry it's not your fault, it's just I  a present I thought time forgot
if you ask me I'll the secrets, but I promise you on my honor, cuz fuck it's all I'm left with
everyone wants to the fuck the prom queen, and no body wants to get fucked.
so if she don't feel right all, let her, but do it with style, it's ok we'll have hatched
with our own style, this sides up and it's reverse, it's an enigma we learned the lesson
it doesn't really matter if I think it's fair no one asked me, and I don't care
and if I'm dreamin it can't be real, go on and pinch yourself, tell me how it feels
I know we all love this, it's so simply elegant, no one believes it was heaven sent
so we lie about it but now we never will know, and can ever, ever know
you know how many times god created the universe?
well thats a stupid question, it can only be one
cuz you called it uni, not cuz it was true
you were all blind, and I was I who never knew
cuz to me you all are crazy scary my favorite nightmare that I can't let go away
as I'm sleeping I rarely dream, I got other spaces if you know what I mean
nothing really fancy, though some might call it spare, it's digital verse but I don't really care
it's fucked up when you've forgotten what hackings for, you didn't know me nevermore
cuz when you start a single cell, that should be the ned of it.
so thanks for all the craziness, now we know who graduates, it's one that clears the plate
so only choose how you desire, and take credit, or burn with fire
it's your spells from another universe, you asked for magic, and thats the curse
I come and go by some design, I can't see it cuz it's not mine, I chart the courses
and lead the way, your taking credit for judgement day
playing with damnation in a world gone mad, how does that help us, it makes the people sad
If we all can't get along, no one cares, it's not their song, this is a private idaho
who's it is, well I hope I never know
when you are the elephant, elephant, elephant, in every room you've ever been
it makes you wish for a mom and dad,  I lost one, I never got to know, lost the other in the same blow
it had to happen, I understand, how does this make this a promised land
I was never promised, nor can I ever be, I'm freely given but can't be sold
you use me up till you get old, it comes from fountains, sodas or some pills
there just knock offs for the cults, it's all real and yet not quite what it seems
were all buck rogers in some cosmic toy chest, but don't tell us were frozen and we won't know when we're cold.
Everyone keeps asking me if were so connected, where in all this tragedy
can I find my just deserts,and but I just keep on laughing, you've gone from 3rd to 1st
number 1 can be top, theres always a bigger fish, he don't even want the crown
thats why she lords all over her friends
2 days laters they are laughing together, maybe they start a new trend
when we are all so busy running through a maze, your scared as shit
and it's you who is crazed, I hope you finally understand
that it's your own future your chasing
it's your own future your chasing
it's the shit behind you, you can't leave behind
cuz it's your own future that your chasing
I used to love completely but I know thats shits a lie
if god made things to last forever how come they never do
I learned stories and I flunked your tests
but you were never my teacher, I was your test
I learned all your letters, numbers, and your charts
you couldn't figure if I was smart, or just dumb luck
or random chance, and I'm here to tell ya, einstein was a smart man, you shoulda kept more than the pieces.
maps and charts sure I do fine, but I'm a pretender, I always lie, cuz it's you that can't die
and I could be sleeping with fishes, I'd never know I was part of the show,
the counters like to keep track, but it was your nursery ryhmes that really stand the test of time
oh and that fox was worthy, but I'm only chick in this hen house. if you do not understand
then this is not for you

oh one last thing I'm a BOY, it was never certain, but I said once, yes I said it twice, no one contradicted me no one proved me false. oh I've been lied to, and I've been mislead, but all the bad deeds they were all in my head.  I am moderation, I'm a balance or a scale, I really thought you'd had it, at e=mc22222222222222222222222222222222222222222222222222...
what more was there?
Jack
aka
panseybard

Twisted Vision from an Resident Alien

Have you ever heard it?
that shot heard round the world
your private little fantasy became your flag unfurled
no one can believe it, but it was just a spark
a momentary lapse of honesty, then I broke your heart
all those little lies all told, I just wished them all for you
the secrets in the dark your fed me sounded far to blue
and we all know that we can't take that chill
we all so wrapped in vanity
that we made time stand still
even though it seemed like fantasy
it was all to real

I keep on thinking that I am the burn victim
but I just wear your scars
I know you said not a convertible
but it was not my car
I swear I lost control
I guess we can thank all humanity
for stepping off of jimmy's cliff
we all know where the body is
though some of it might be gone
I just came back to help destroy evidence
so I just can't get back
but then I'm the leader of hypocrisy
and I am just your kid

we trapped in the covenant, yeah it's with in the arc
still when you see what the lighting did
my flash burned you till you cried
you thought you had lost your humanity
your leaders lost your minds
so we took you and we wrapped you in gravity
and told your it was now the lid
but sometimes when the bubbles are poppin
and the music is rocking, and the children are droppin
it's not me it's only cid
and nancy can say that those are made for walking on me
I'm already on the floor. it's not that I got better offers
but ya say I can't stay here no more

frist you say that death is tragedy when their the ones that got to go
just remember when they ask you where santa is
I know what you did!!!

How Pretty are Your Demons

I can be your baby doll I can your teenage dream
I know all the things your like, if you know what I mean
the things you won't tell your mom, but dad sometimes let slide
are the things that momma gives you, and money just can't buy
though your slipping through your fingers, cuz you turned time to sand
while you might mark the passage you can't understand
there are rivers in the darkness, blue lagoons and castaways
but were all on the love boat, and I hope it stays that way
cuz the passions that divide us are the same that keep us whole
down avenues in broad daylight, don't you test the prom queens might
cuz she one the fans adore, and your not needed anymore
she dressed you and played you nice, and now you drink the widows price
and once you take that bitter pill, eat the apple, have your fill
your drunk on maddness not of mine, for I am void and this is time
so why the fuck did your drag me here, to trap me in your fading light
in hopes I had the final key, but it's the piece that no one needs
it doesn't fit in any door, you gods don't live here anymore
you took temples, and you call them homes, and from their bones you craft your thrones
but when your on the devils ride, she a bitch, and your her ride
she chews you up, and spits you, tells you what it's all about
and if you still can sing your song, well she'll just shake you all night long
and if you go another day, she just cries while you laugh and play
she's only just a little shrew, and you know just what to do
you play baby, daddy, mommy wife, just so you can sneak a bite
looking for your new coo coo, but she can't stand they way your stink
so off you go to find a drink, you numb your mind to take your pain
I make you another stain.
your just a trick, and I am too
so if you wanna know my magic mind
well thats to bad, cuz it's all mine

Jack
aka
PanseyBard

out on the edge looking in

I'm not here for your amusement
though I love to play the fool
When I find a prison, well
I'm breaking all the rules

Everyones my leader
but no one keeps me chained
you can nail me to your crosses
it's still you who are to blame

bringing fire from heaven
well sure I paid a price
locked up for the weekend
but at least I rolled the dice

I don't care if you've gone crazy
there is no such thing as sane
it's just a story that you made up
to drive away the pain

You put your past behind you
you lay your dead to rest
so when you drink the spirits
your disdained become your guests

always I'm among you
so you don't know where to look
I've become my own police man
cuz I'm the biggest crook

I am not the darkness
though I know I'm not the light
it was you that split the heavens
cuz it gave you such a fright
so you marked each stars passing
hoping it returned, and
then you found the planets
how the heavens churned

imagination turned to legend
possibility to fact
for every two steps forward
it was me that pushed you back

each act of kindness
is answered with it's sin
when answers to the questions
have set limits from within

so I burn my wings to blind you
from the light you so adore
to find I was beneath you
while you use me as a floor

I can take a pounding
for awhile I like the view
but when things are beneath you
well you know what people do

no matter how I fight it
I'm always someones tool
like the surfer and galactus
but at least I know the rules

whipped when I'm barking
there are strangers at your door
another act of kindness
but we gotta know the score

I am not the darkness
though I know I'm not the light
it was you that split the heavens
cuz it gave you such a fright
so you marked each stars passing
hoping it returned, and
then you found the planets
how the heavens churned

spinning webs of mystery
so everyone can play
while everybody wants the job
no one likes the pay

none of you can own me
I belong in all and none
but when you try to shape me
well I love to play along

I'll always be the joker
so I'll always take the blame
but I just do the reading
it's batman thats to blame

he always hides in shadows
never sees the light
it's not that I am jealous
he'd be nothing without me

chaos left behind me
they say I was to blame
so no one wants to find me
they just can't take their shame

how can wounds that heal so quickly
leave such lasting scars
if someone is deceiving
I know that it's not mars

I am not the darkness
though I know I'm not the light
it was you that split the heavens
cuz it gave you such a fright
so you marked each stars passing
hoping it returned, and
then you found the planets
how the heavens churned