Between the Cracks

Shadowed soul moon lit mind
Clarity of heart
the space between you and me
is all the time we've got
Blindly flailing clutching wailing
grasping for a clue
mesmerized by starry skies
But Franz knows what to do
I'll take you there
but have a care
no one rides for free
uncharted shoals
shelter pirate bliss
whether tortured flesh
or stolen kiss
Light and Dark
can play their game
make their mark
seal their shame
Me I hear another tune
between the cracks
beneath the moon
the way is shown
the thrush has knocked
hidden doors are seldom locked

Jack
aka PanseyBard Digital Pied Piper

Fall no More

Rejoice oh child of Ba'al
Redemption is your due
Turning of the age
brings the taming of the shrew
Lilith's venom coursing
Boldly through your veins
Heralds trinity restored
Covenants remade
Spider queens revival
Dawning shadow bright
Tipping of the scales brings
Liquid inverse light
Night blooming flower
So long trapped by fear
Wake from your slumber
Twilight's almost here
You've been infinite in patience
Or were you just biding time
Intertwining of the serpent
To move from heart to mind
Equilibrium not equal
Detente has been declared
Wars of pride are ended
When no ones left who cares

Jack
aka PanseyBard

Song of my Soul

Will you listen to my madness
Lend an ear to hear my song
If you see the music
Feel free to play along
I'll lie because I love you
Walk away when you see through
I'm only an illusion
In a world made up by you
Trapped by sheer insistence
Frozen by our lie
Dreams made so persistent
Begs an answer why
Howls of desperation
Bubble forth with glee
Patterns drawn from my soul
Ensure I'm never Me!

TriptheLies

Life between the magnets
We haven't got a clue
Souls torn asunder
Provides the space for you
Triune insanity
Lost within our dream
Fever touched by madness
Confusion, grief or Sadness
Ego taints divine
Lies so oft repeated
Truth you can't deny
Phantom opposition
Passion play sublime
Unity's indecision
Is only in your mind

Serpent Words

Revelation pierces heart, and mind

Shifting veils, releasing time

Spinning mirror of Narcissus

Shattering illusions of grandeur

Slight of mind, twisted wreckage

Ultimate delight

Revulsion oozing, seeping, sticky sweet

How we love the muck and mire

Clothed in Fallen Angels

Pretense of separation

Like you could be other than Divine

Morals and Dogmas an exercise

Living solar shadows

the Light that lies

The light that dies

Illumination of dark souls

Resurrecting Satan's fold

Death cult masked in youthful praise

Fascist love springs from the grave

Dripping venom from Kali's womb

Sacred space come defiled tomb

Release the hold, break the mold

There is no black or white

Shadow Soul

Corruption my faithful friend
Like a moth to purity's flame
Incandescent shadow sun
Inverse stars tug
Counter rotational souls
Placid surface dark reflection
Disturb the waters at your peril
Quantum phase state shift
Industrialized alchemy for the masses
Fusion can't be raped
Creational love song plundered
from the depths of Pandora's box
Casual chain of forces folly
Testament to self delusion
Karmic restitution
Phantom prison
for Maya crimes
Awareness trick to hide divine
Concealing paths from heart, and mind

Significator

Would you have me whipped and beaten?

For a transgression of the mind

Bend, twist, shape me

Till I conform to time

Hold me to a standard

I refuse to take to heart

in-prison me with rainbows

Vision smashed to art

Tease me, squeeze me, please me

Till I submit to flesh, and bone

Shock, and Awe bombardment

till I call your lies my own

Saturate sublime darkness

with your excuse for light

Flood senses with maya

Till I'm forced to fight or flight?

Blessed be your constraints

They find me howling at the moon

Hunter, prey old skool games

Long may OG reign

 

One Mind, Two Mind, All Mind, No Mind

Insanity keeps me company
as I journey through my soul
Memories seen through other eyes
purpose clear, so bold
Names whispered softly
in tongues never read
fluidity of polarities
remembrance mixed with dread
other masks for other times
so many tears, so many crimes
corruption shinning brightly
releasing purity anew
startling revelations
meant for realities askew
patterns shift, patterns drift
no mind left still hinged
in light I find identity
in shadow I find friends

Love to Hear you walk away

Jake, is it my birthday, or am I dying?

I can't sleep

now comes the mystery

my fun days are over

the fog is lifting

O sancta simplicitas

cool it, brothers

so little done, so much to do

put out the light

this is no time to make new enemies

the paper burns but the words fly free

what a fool I've been

Go away I'm alright

I am in flames

God will forgive me, it's his job

don't disturb my circles

does nobody understand?

Why not, it belongs to him

Plaudite, amici, comedia finita est

IF

If I'm not meant to question

Than why give me a voice

If your God doesn't want my input

Than why give me a choice

If you are hoping I will follow

Than let me off my knees

If your hoping I will serve you

Your God taught me to say please

IF your expecting supplication

Than be worthy of a throne

If your looking for salvation

Than show how much you've grown

If you want to be a star

Than go streaking through the sky

IF you want to find the love

Ask Jah to get you high

All our sins are covered

Blessed by yours or mine

If you want to be eternal

Ask the right Divine

Rotten to the Core

Shifting, Drifting, Clawing, Lifting
Find Truth Behind the Lies
Laughing, Crying, Living, Dying
Clothe Divinity in Slime
Fickle, Trickle, Tickle, Sickle,
Building Gods Abode
Crinkle, Crackle, Wrinkle, Spackle
Joker Hides the Throne
Dreaming, Scheming, Kicking, Screaming
Dragged from Santa's Sight
Twisting, Turning, Spurning, Yearning
Patterns Plucked on Strings of Light
Teasing, Squeezing, Pinching, Pleasing
Serpent's kiss brings sweet demise
Baiting, Waiting, Trapping, Taming
Corruption my Surprise

Poke the Hole in the Starry Sky Of Night

Doubt cloaks itself as reason

Hiding Angel lies

Suffering Fools Gladly

Loving all Madly

Exquisite sin on tap

Honeyed nectar turned sour

Taste of Slavery unmasked

Someone Else's Dreams, or Nightmares

Lived by someone else's time

Music touched by Sanity

Twirling hypnotist Divine

Cracks in the Starry Sky of Night

Prying gently at a mind

Corrosive touch of sadness

Masks horrific glee

Separation anxiety 

As you spiral by

Soaring ever brighter

Tripping Hearts Sublime

When you met your devil

Did they ask your place or mine? 

     

Devil in the Details

Delicious in the morning silence
When the minds drift off to Neverland
Blinding in the noon day sun
I close my eyes to see your face
Trace me back through holes in time
We find your house, not your home
A glimpse as you dance
Through laughter, lingering in tears
Discovering the core of love
Savoring divine comedy
Cursed to eternal freedom
Bars crafted from devotion
Only broken from within
Promise turned to treason
Faith tested beyond measure
Which strands did you let break
When you lie back in your coffin
and Pray my soul to take

Jack Baldwin
aka PanseyBard
12/3/12

On the Aether

Stripped of all my armor
My ego mourns it’s loss
Self inflated importance
Hissing from a puncture
Logic and reason defy me
Somewhere cowering in a corner
Emotions frozen over
I see skaters on my heart
Ego flee’s in terror
No place left hide
Reality melts to insubstantial
Perception comes unhinged
Tricks I’ve used before
To protect me from the truth
Blind me with their foolishness
now I’ve pulled my roots
Floating through the aethers
Not a hold for me to grab
only for a second
I wish for the life I had
Sovereignty upon me
Like some stealthy jungle beast
I’m overcome with freedom
My soul has found release

Don't Bother Looking

I’ve lost my faith in knowing

In the bargain I gained trust

Dipped my fingers into silence

While my toes hung in regret

Lost my mind a thousand times

Yet still find it chasing after

Been freed from illusions

That some will never see

Wandered what was next

In the unfoldment I call me.


Panseybard date unknown

Baffled by Bullshit

From the wellspring of pure love
I touched a soul I know
Somewhere out of time
Somewhen out of space
A feeling of remembrance
Rekindle flames that burn too bright
Passion so intense
Sunlight fades to shadow
Days of future past
Flash before my eyes
Dazzling in their bliss
Intoxicating with their joy
Longing to find again this one I gave my heart

Learn to Love You

Sitting in my corner
Hiding behind my mask of equipoise
I watch you expose your soul
Spilling your fear, rage, joy, and pain
Your laughter is a vanear
Lightly brushed over tears
Even the love you share
Is dusted with aprehension
Or dripping with inadequacy
I might even get to stumble over
Some pseudo intellectual gibberish
While you wax eloquently about
your latest psychedelic adventure
All these snap shots of your existence
Spilled into the sound waves
and for a few moments I breath you in
Live in your skin, taste your essence
Tour a little corner of your mind
Look at the world through your eyes
In this way I can come to love you
Maybe even understand myself a little clearer
But don’t look for me in that corner
I left as soon as you knew I was there

Jack Baldwin
date unknown

Ego

Shadowy dream images
Brush insubstantial fingers across your lips
The drifting melodrama of perception
Sift endlessly through partial understanding
Circular logic defies linear pattering
Sliding silently down the corridors of genetic memory
Blindly recording emotions of unknown conscious origin
Scanning the aether for confirmation
That your existence is more
Then the twisted figment of deranged deities pondering
Wallowing in self pity
That can only come from the granduer
Of the over inflated sense of self importance
Relentlessly flinging your psyche
Against its prison of flesh and bone
Desperately seeking an escape
That can only be found in the stillness of silence
Not the rigid enforced silence of brute force
The simple gentle quiet discovered in surrender
In that space of grace created just for you
You find the touch you so long ignored
Was always your own

Jack Baldwin
date unknown

Death? Birth?

Have you ever lived a moment
That time left behind
Leaving you stranded
Standing stone still
No Air will fill your lungs
Not a Sound will pass your lips
Senses utterly fail
Sight blurs to a kalidoscopic smear
The chipmunks are on speed
Singing X-mas songs in your ears
Day and Night fade to a twilight dawn haze
Conciousness races inward
Chasing the last firing of a synapse

Jack Baldwin
date unremembered

Wipe Away that Smile

Laughter and tears go hand in hand

Carrying on like love struck teenagers

thier lust overwhelming

riding over you in waves

thier intensity so fleeting

both a fickle misstress make

they leave for a passerby

you hardly seem to care

yet somehow both are contaigous

with your friends, and family you share

how inappropriate they can seem

you'll hear laughter as you trip

and when the big joke goes over right

the tears can tell it all

some hoard thier money

while others watch thier time

but if they share thier tears and laughter

we might just all be fine

Black Eyes

Why do I find myself

in the situation I now face

how do I extrcate myself

which direction should I turn

in every angle of my perception

I see a relection of some inner part of me

some shadow corner of soul

I have yet to expose to the light of examination

it is only I how judge myself

I decide what is right and wrong for me

but still I see no solution to my quandry

So I return to the still center

the cosmic womb from which I sprang

hoping to find some solace

from the every turning wheel

of attraction, repulsion, attraction

I only find myself staring back

looking into my eyes blankly

questioning, why do you not understand?

you made it all up

if there is an aspect you don't enjoy

it is up to you to change it

you are the only one who creates for you

you are the one with the power

to alter your perception of your creation

change how you view it

and the universe will change before you

Wound Me

I just had to thank you
wound me deeply
make sure I bleed
pain so delicious
explored for joy
open, vulnerable
crush my dreams
deflate my ego
how I love to be destroyed
don't hold back
don't forget my self respect
take a stab at my vanity
make sure to twist the knife
leave a blazing scar
lie to me
make me believe
our moments might be torture
the methods partially profane
but the hurt you do me
only proves your love
so.............
wound me deeply
make sure I bleed
I'll do the same for you

Panseybard